NOTEWORTHY CRUSH UPDATE

This kills me, in a silly good way. So I have ran into a few of you either on the phone or in person, and you changed our conversations to talk about my crush and why I haven’t updated my blog since I mentioned this new seed, but you never commented on my blog. Which isn’t a big deal, but come on guys if your interested, you gotta PUT OUT some signs..( blog comments of interest).

The night I burnt Halloween pumpkins everything changed.

It started off at FHE when my ward carved pumpkins, I ending up carving four which means, I’m pretty involved in my own thing. But this handsome guy in my ward befriended a brand new guy in our ward that happened to be next to me (Sadly, I was too engrossed in my punpkin to outreach) the artist in me was focused until this handsome guy hung around. Through slippery slimy orange fingers I tried to get to know him, and thought to myself (Why haven’t I noticed his handsomeness). Immediately we made a couple connections with his mission and such, but even now as I type, our connection wasn’t based off me loving his mission, it wasn’t based off of him complimenting my carving skills, there was something more and it felt nice.

Handsome guy decided to invite people over to his house for a bonfire, I hesitated. I promised my homework we would hang out and spend some good quality time together, but those brown eyes of his seemed to convince me otherwise and I GAVE HEED.

Three of us girls got into Handsome guy’s car and headed to his house and along the way he turned on music and declared he had a song for me to listen to. A dedicatory song to me, this was off to a good start. How did he know one of the paths to my heart was music and to step it up a notch. He played one of my favorite Death Cab For Cutie songs, I was flattered, floored and giddy about this. How did he know I love this so? I am usually the one presenting dedicatory things. He said he knew from facebook, which happens to be the second funniest place to stalk people (I mean give extra attention) next to blog stalking. So I was sitting in the back seat listening to this song, but thinking about his extra effort. I realized that crush number one couldn’t produce anything for me, With that crush it was like playing chase with someone that played out of courtesy, he couldn’t really say “hey, I just don’t want to play tag, or chase or hide and seek with you” There is nothing worse than playing hide and seek when people don’t take it serious..you know they are even the type that may make you hide for hours because it is funny to them…..Why was I seriously trying to play with someone that didn’t take it serious.

There was about a dozen of us around that fire. And it was so much fun. Handsome guy talked to me more about not much and maybe nothing at all, but when you have that type of connection the content is layered by that connection. Everything becomes interesting to talk about because you’re interested in them.

As he drove me and my mission companion back to my car at the institute, he verbally pointed out the defined connection we have.

The next Sunday gathering of lunch the old crush was there and I TOLD HIM ABOUT HANDSOME GUY!!! Speaking of him was so easy and a couple girlfriends were so surprised I told Crush #1 about Crush #2, but it was my closure that seemed to fit so well. (side note: I can’t believe I pursued someone that considered themselves RESERVED)

So the bonfire was a great night and that great night turned into a great friendship. And this great friendship is something more. This started 18 days ago and I’ve seen him 11 of those, I only note that because I am working on my math skills! HAHa, you all can see right through me and I love that as well. 11 is a good number don’t you think.

EVIDENCE of MORE than a CRUSH: Election night I was with him and for those of you that know me and my family and that night……but I couldn’t not go.

I was with him last night. He gave me a sweet sweat wristband (that’s another post) that I kept on all night, infact it is still on and I don’t feel embarrassed.
With him I don’t have to speak to him on his level, I am myself and it seems he even embraces that awkwardness missionary inside of me which gives me a sense that who I am makes sense, I feel it couldn’t get sweeter than this, but you guys know how smooth I am,, so more sweetness is bound to come( I had to throw in some seriously so blessedness)

I actually have to give partial credit to Handsome guy about my thoughts about reservation, it was collectively revealed to me through so many people but mainly him because it has been so comfortable my level of reservation has been small. But here is the thing: currently he doesn’t own soccer cleats! I am not really sure how to push through that. He did play indoor soccer with us the other night so I may or may not be letting that slide. You and I know how high my standards are for that help-meet! 🙂

There is more I could write but I’m going to blank-canvas it and open it up for questions